[Realization of ‘I am Perfect’]
“”I love you!”” I often find myself saying this inadvertently to just about anyone, which often leads to me blushing. Recently, while getting change back in a taxi, I thanked the driver and then, without thinking, said “”I love you!”” (laughs).
That’s how much “”Ho’oponopono”” has become a daily habit for me. The four phrases “”Thank you,”” “”I’m sorry,”” “”Please forgive me,”” and “”I love you”” are always in my heart. In the morning, I start my day with a glass of Blue Solar Water. I use water for cooking, cleaning, and consume about 1.8 liters daily. It’s been about 1 year and 3 months since I discovered Ho’oponopono. During this time, I have learned many important things.
Among them, the biggest realization is that “”I am perfect as I am.”” The world of modeling may seem glamorous and fun, but it comes with many demands. The old me often felt suffocated. Surrounded by beautiful people, I was constantly told, “”Be like that person,”” “”Lose more weight,”” “”Become more beautiful.”” I was desperate to meet these expectations.
However, I also felt a sense of discomfort, as if I was being made into someone else. I didn’t have strong enough beliefs to resist this, so my worries only grew. I was so tired of this daily struggle that I seriously considered quitting modeling. It was around this time that I came across Ho’oponopono, picking up a book about it in a bookstore by chance.
Reading it struck a chord with me, and I immediately began to practice cleaning. Soon after, a thought came to me: “”Even if I change jobs because modeling isn’t going well, wouldn’t I just be repeating the same pattern? Instead, let’s clean the feeling of ‘it’s not going well’!”” So, I continued to clean my feelings of inadequacy with words like “”Thank you, I love you.””
Eventually, I realized that there’s nothing in this world that isn’t going right. I genuinely felt, “”I am perfect! I am fine as I am!”” I became calm, no longer swayed or troubled by my surroundings. It was a moment of grounding.
Since then, I’ve stopped worrying and doubting. I can now fully engage in modeling, living as my true self.
[Being Silly and Calmly Cleaning]
Practicing daily cleaning has made things go smoothly and enjoyably. For example, before a photo shoot, I clean the name and address of the building where the studio is located, and the names of the staff. At the site, I clean my makeup tools, among other things. When I stand in front of the camera, my expressions and poses come naturally, without effort.
Cleaning is also essential in my private life. For instance, if an acquaintance behaves troublingly, I clean my own feeling of annoyance. This resolves the issue smoothly and clears any negative emotions within me. Negative emotions and experiences, which are usually hard to forget, surprisingly disappear after cleaning. And they never come back.
You might find it odd, but I think it’s good to be silly and not overthink, just keep cleaning calmly (laughs).
[Ho’oponopono for Being Myself!]
Of course, I still sometimes feel envious of beautiful people or experience inferiority. But now, I take these moments as lucky opportunities. I once attended a KR session, who taught me, “”When you make a mistake, it’s a perfect chance to clean.””
When I feel inferior or angry, it’s an opportunity to clean those feelings. If I think “”I’m not good enough,”” I start by cleaning that feeling. If something else comes to mind, I clean that too… Eventually, I always come back to the realization, “”That’s right, I am perfect. Everything in the world is perfect.””
I particularly want women to know the wonder of Ho’oponopono. Many women today, exposed to so much information, strive for perfect beauty and a perfect life, and lose sight of what they truly want, just like I used to. Practicing Ho’oponopono helps you understand what you truly need, and only what’s necessary will appear before you.
For me, Ho’oponopono is like a “”place to return to for being myself.”” I want to continue cleaning joyfully for a more authentic life ahead.