Have you ever suddenly paused in the middle of your busy daily life and found yourself wondering,
“How did I end up here?”
A moment of feeling overwhelmed, as if you’ve arrived at a place that has nothing to do with the path you once intended to walk.

It may feel like you’ve strayed far from your original intentions, like you can no longer see the footprints of your own choices, and instead, as if someone else brought you here without your knowing.

That experience itself is the replaying of memory.
It is a response to aspects of your life’s long history that have repeated many times, and to the patterns of thinking you’ve been unconsciously caught in.

And where does it come from?
It stems from the belief that we can control our lives, and the repeated habit of thinking, “I will do this in order to achieve that.”

“I will enter this school to achieve something.”
“I will study this to become someone.”
“I will get married by a certain age.”
“I will have children in order to live a fulfilling life.”
“I will live here for a specific reason.”

It’s as if we believe we already know what is most important in our lives, constantly updating our list of things we “should” do.

This isn’t to say that any of these choices are bad. But what if even those “shoulds” are coming from old memories from the distant past?

And let me be clear—I’m not someone who lives on a mountaintop, away from people and modern life, meditating all day.

I read health blogs, I hear updates from my family. Bills still arrive, and I have contracts that need to be signed.

Each time, I set priorities to handle them and make TO DO lists to get things done.

But somewhere in that process, I clean.
To remember that I don’t truly know, with my mind alone, what is really happening here.

Through cleaning, I remind myself that everything I’m dealing with right now—everything I feel I want to do—is here as an opportunity for me to clean.

And in remembering this, I can choose the best action not as a slave to memory, but as someone using a tool of Divine consciousness.

So if you ever find yourself thinking, “How did I end up in this place?” and feel lost in your life, you can start cleaning right now, in this moment.

That experience is, in fact, a sacred opportunity for cleaning—so that you may return to your true self once again.

Peace,
KR