Is it because of age?
Or perhaps the lingering emotional pain experienced in childhood?
Could it have started from small incidents in marriage, parenting, or relationships?
Maybe it’s anxiety about the future and financial concerns.

That heavy, gloomy feeling that starts from the moment you wake up—
it quietly lingers through the day, and then the next,
until it becomes the very color of your everyday life.
Even as you move your hands and feet, engaging your thoughts to go through the motions of daily life,
you might feel like you’re wading through muddy waters,
struggling forward without a visible way out.

There may be no major injury or illness,
yet you continue to feel unable to truly appreciate life or face it positively—
and in that state, you quietly blame yourself.
Over time, even the small fragments of confidence you had left to support yourself begin to fade away.

Even when you want to talk to someone,
you don’t know where to begin.
How could you possibly put this hazy state into words?
It feels like nothing more than selfishness,
and even thinking about it becomes too much—
so again today, you find yourself drifting through that murky place, alone.

And when you are face to face with that faint sense of despair—
the thought that maybe this will go on forever—
what can you do?

When you feel down and anxious,
when even trying to practice cleaning seems too much and you don’t know where to start,
there is one thing you can begin with.

You might feel like you don’t even have expectations or hope anymore.
But even so, there are still expectations within us that can be cleaned.

I want to get out of this depression.
If only I could, then surely I’d feel more positive.
If this heaviness disappeared,
I could do the laundry, cook, and work with more ease.
If this burden was lifted,
I could enjoy conversations with others again.
If I were freed from this pain,
then I would be happy.

These faint expectations—
these self-created “rules” for when things will get better—
why does cleaning them help ease depression?

When we try to solve problems on our own instead of cleaning,
searching for causes and answers,
it’s like trying to fix a machine without consulting its perfect manual.

Divinity already knows how to resolve the issue
and knows your perfect path and talents.
When people who have lost sight of their way wander around blindly,
things get tangled—
and we end up experiencing the consequences as anger, depression, or other emotional pain.

The way to untangle them
is for each of us to receive the wisdom of Divinity.

If you feel lost, wondering how much effort it will take to receive that wisdom,
or if it sounds like a fantasy—
that is simply a sign that you are not aligned with your true path.

Because inspiration is always showering upon you, at all times.
It is not something granted at random,
nor is it given or withheld based on anyone’s conditions.

It is always flowing to you.
It is we who choose not to receive it—
by opening the umbrella of thoughts and expectations and stepping away from it.

Even in times when it feels too painful to think at all,
we still rely on thought.

“If only this one thing changed, things would get better.”
“If I had that, none of this would’ve happened.”

When we become aware of those thoughts,
and clean with them, releasing them—
in that moment, the heaviness and gloom we’ve been carrying
can begin to lift.

And the seemingly dark landscape before you
will be revealed as something vibrant and clear.
Because it was always there—right in front of you.